If I could....

"If I could just have said this then nothing would have happened things would have been better." How many times has it been that you have pondered over this statement and that stroke of guilt has hit you for being quiet. I know it has happened with almost all of us. The guilt, the sadness, the regret, that we often have is ladden with the curtain of fear, fear of being judged, fear of being misunderstood, fear of being outcasted and the biggest the fear of loneliness. The fear of not speaking, not acting, of not being a situationist, and not meeting up the worldly standards has taken us so far from our own selves that now returning back has become a vivid expression. We try, we run, we rush, we fall and then we drag ourselves but how far has this taken us. Did you reach your destination, did you achieve the worldly standards, does the aunty living in your neighborhood now admire you, or does your so called bua ji aur fufa ji have stopped ranting about your weight or or have the professors stopped asking to improve yourselves or has your boss stopped giving you warning for being late just because you were stuck in the traffic. Honestly speaking I don't think anything has moved an inch. But I do know this that you as a person as an individual have changed - you think before you speak, you think before you eat, you think before you sleep. Ask yourself this question when was it that you did something without giving it a second thought or without thinking that it will have a consequence so bad that it can take away your everything. My question to you is why always think of such dire consequences. Getting a needle pricked does not mean does not mean that you will die out of getting hurt.  We as human beings have gotten into a habit of magnifying things so that they become hitherto important to us. This does not end here it also has another reason of attracting compassion and sympathy of the fellow beings and if you need to magnify the minute things just to fulfill your need for having someone beside you then my friend you cannot live like this forever because there will be once that you will be alone not in the physical being but it in your own self inside you, you will become hollow and suddenly everything will fall apart. I do not suggest you to worldly wise or to be a perfectionist and I'm also not saying that it is a bad thing to feel the need of compassion but this is certainly not the correct way to grab compassion. First thing you cannot grab compassion it will come to you on its own when you need it. I as an individual am not different from you all but this is a suggestion from one human to the other that please stop running behind things to catch them. I am not also saying to sit and wait but please stop, breathe in and breathe out and then start again. My humble request to every fellow being is nothing has been achieved without planning anxiety, stress, depression, disorders, tension, frustration all are somewhere present in us because at some point of time we didn't plan. if you couldn't say or speak up about something at the very time or at the very moment then don't regret because everything happens for good and yes it does.